bit drunk
lost
very lost
i have no path
i have a lots to be thankful for really
but
i dont have joy
.i feel alone but in a way that is bigger then someone
next to me .
im even god less
these days i have someone who wants me as a physical thing
but really its no great thing
its just a function.
i have a church type who misses me
and in fact i miss her too
but that is so un workable to
so im wanted .
i have 1 or 2 friends
so i have friends
i even talk to ex's
so i have comuication of a sort
not always the best thing .
i have things ive bought and are ment to be good to have .
but im still dead
i have nothing still
what is this hole
its so empty to be here