what a mix
i feel less crashed today
BUT trouble ...
church girl is going to this quiz night
but thats good timing really
because im not ,,im keeping away from the threat of the
nut case stalker...
i got asked lots of questions by the church girls friends
about how they should react and what
they should say about my sort of date
..i said about my date we are not a couple...
i also said its good that church girl ,,,is getting out
.its good for her...
I miss her in ways but i cant go back
.i did feel wanted till she made it clear i wasnt good enough.
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im still getting chat from the usa Girl ...mostly bragging about
the things she is up to ...also her choice in clothes has rocketed in to the
$700 to $1000 for a jackrt range,,,, hes paying.
so thats like a put down beside the income i have ....or anyone really.
i know this wont last ...i know her ...we were not going to work as a couple
but i also know they wont ,,,,its just fame and money holding that together
----
so my one night out a week is off
im stuck now
and i have the singer chipping away at me ,,,
critisizing
i do feel jelous at times her talking about other men with such
a keen interest ...and i just get looks like im some sad
geek
cant help that feeling
i feel rejection
i feel less crashed today
BUT trouble ...
church girl is going to this quiz night
but thats good timing really
because im not ,,im keeping away from the threat of the
nut case stalker...
i got asked lots of questions by the church girls friends
about how they should react and what
they should say about my sort of date
..i said about my date we are not a couple...
i also said its good that church girl ,,,is getting out
.its good for her...
I miss her in ways but i cant go back
.i did feel wanted till she made it clear i wasnt good enough.
---
im still getting chat from the usa Girl ...mostly bragging about
the things she is up to ...also her choice in clothes has rocketed in to the
$700 to $1000 for a jackrt range,,,, hes paying.
so thats like a put down beside the income i have ....or anyone really.
i know this wont last ...i know her ...we were not going to work as a couple
but i also know they wont ,,,,its just fame and money holding that together
----
so my one night out a week is off
im stuck now
and i have the singer chipping away at me ,,,
critisizing
i do feel jelous at times her talking about other men with such
a keen interest ...and i just get looks like im some sad
geek
cant help that feeling
i feel rejection
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Awwww thats sad these girls being not respectful. Its very hard to deal with someone thats so materialistic. Theres so many more important things in life than expensive clothes and things like that. Some people are just like that :( Its hard to get over someone and move on. I would continue with your one night out a week even if its just going to do something for your self. I need to do that too makes you feel so much better just to get out. Hugggzzz sorry its a struggle to find Ms right but in the end it will be worth it when you find the one that truely respects you for you :)
cant go out to the quiz night
3 reasons
A)my sort of dates ex is a crazy stalker and has admited to spying there.
B)my ex would be there and i dont want all that upset.
C)sort of date and my ex in the same room..bad i dea