feeling alone today
to say i spent last night with someone
at a very personal level
i am alone ...
,in fact i would say i even felt like that at the time
relationships seem impossible
even these help pages are hard.
i cant find conection
.its so fucking difficult  

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Does it help you to know that it\'s not YOUR fault?
deleted_user
deleted_user

Are you finding our friendship hard?

i know it\'s just an online friendship
but I find it quite rewarding.

I was thinking about you this morning
and wondering if you realize how long
you\'ve been journaling for.

it\'s impressive. how dedicated you are
to feeling better.
deleted_user
deleted_user

this is normal. how you feel about the relationship.
it\'s just a physical one.

it\'s only nurturing the physical.
that will not be enough for you.

you will get bored, and as you say, lonely.

you need an emotionally nurturing relationship too.
alantm
alantm

Does it help you to know that it\'s not YOUR fault?

i dont understand ?
alantm
alantm

Are you finding our friendship hard?

thank you for thinking of me ..
i find you very caring and untral ,,,newtral
neutral
3rd i think

yes time is passing on this site
i try not to think because its a painful list
to be true as i try to be on here
the last few days ive thought about cuts
not a plan
just the idea that it wouls stop the anguish
i feel like knots inside me

so in some ways ive fallen
my date is asking questions because ive gone distant and quiet
im trying just to be quiet so
,i dont make thinks more complex
alantm
alantm

emotionally nurturing relationship
seems a world away
i really do not understand people any more
also i think at the rate i move i will have ran out of time
youth is gone
i see it when i see the young pass me in the street

my old ideas of love are long gone to
its too late
deleted_user
deleted_user

What kind of questions is she asking?
deleted_user
deleted_user

\"im trying just to be quiet so
,i dont make thinks more complex \"

you don\'t make it complex. It\'s complex to start with.
alantm
alantm

all my situations are now so stupid
its like some stupid plot
.im in such a corner seeing odd stuff happen
good2go2001
good2go2001

sometimes i can even feel alone and empty in a house full of people. Hate that feeling but it does seem to be worse if im in a new situation with people that i dont know very well and then once im comfortable i dont feel as much as in outsider and empty