she asked to come see me with him
i sent a nice letter saying no
..im very poilte at giving up
even though its a thing that does hurt
and causes me a lot of axiety
 
.it could have proved its true to people who think things i have said are fake
but im willing to let that go ....why do i need to prove it anyway
i know its true and thats all that i need to live with.
if she is happy and she has a shot at love
so be it
--i dont need to prove it to people who dont care
 
i have tryed to date at 4000 miles
you need to be rich to do that
he is rich
so really it could work
i cant do that
..so she has a chance at a fantastic life
i cant give that
.i cant
she was right
money makes it different .
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i seem to be seeing peoples dreams happen around me
.i really am waiting for mine