had a bad day
statred last night
got more emails form the usa girl
she was telling about her guy
and to much info
even saying shes comeing back her this month to get laid
..not a good thing to throw at someone who has been so upset by all this
..i try to be nice and take it as chit chat
but i still think its crule
...
the girl from church emailed the same night saying
how are you
that also didnt help
we were very close till i was rejected because im
not a born again..
rejection is rejection
it may as well have been your the wrong color
and before i get "you dont know that is like "
yes i do i had an indian girl friend for 6 years
and i was not accepted for being whilte
ive been pushed out of back doors of houses
blanked in public
chaced by a gang
been pushed down in a car not to be seen by her family friends
..so i do know
i know rejection for idealistic reasons
.i have rejection issues yes ...and this is before all this
this just is a pile of it on top
=
sad truth is im alone with what ever happens
reaching out is foolish