ok
this is personal page
so here comes the personal stuff
my usa girl ...i have blocked all comunication with
she ran off with a pop star she is even in the UK as i type
this ....she is VERY shallow
but just so glad i didnt spend £610 on that ticket
and be a real idiot.
i knew something wasnt right .
OK
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thats past
been seeing the woman from the quiz night
the hyper one...we get on well because we have the same out look right now
and personalitys that fit ....at least on a casual basis
been on to steamy dates ....really crazy streamy
ive never been with a woman as sexualy driven as she is
never had to keep up that much !
im totally worn out due to staying up all night till dawn
But
the odd thing is im coping very well with this type of situation
i can hadel this ...where as the deep emotional confuision
of the other dates was making me ill
this i know what shes thinking
and i can see how its acting out
also its to do with her wanting me as the outside shell
as well ....the physical atraction she has to me has conected
my out side as part of who i am
..nice to have someone want me ..for my outside as well
i always tryed to prove my inside
so people would accept my outside
and this is not like that :)
down side i am physicaly worn out
but plus side is this sex life has thrown me in to a body work out
in all the ways the doctors said i should be moving !
thats quite funny
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all this came about because i told myself to
not be as slow as i normaly am
be un charictoristicly faster and forward
 
where all this is going or how long this situation will last
i have no idea
she does not need ties
but for now we dont care
its nice just to be on the same wave lenght
with a person and not have a constant wav of someone saying
whats wrong with me .
she thinks im very impressive :P
so...that has given me quite a boost to my confidence
i feel more man ly
and all the world being male female seems to have
a more basic clear reason now ..
odd week