really day till night my days
are really a waste of life
i wake and just wait for night again
im drininking more
and i dont really care
i have so little control of life that ive given up
these truly are wasted days
i am not living at all
even at best id be chacing the impossible
so what the fuck does it matter
if i talk out how i feel
people shut down on me like im poision
so i have to lie now
..my friend has now fucked off after i bit back
and didnt let her just walk all over me
so silence is something i have a lot of now
are really a waste of life
i wake and just wait for night again
im drininking more
and i dont really care
i have so little control of life that ive given up
these truly are wasted days
i am not living at all
even at best id be chacing the impossible
so what the fuck does it matter
if i talk out how i feel
people shut down on me like im poision
so i have to lie now
..my friend has now fucked off after i bit back
and didnt let her just walk all over me
so silence is something i have a lot of now
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I had therapy yesterday and thought of you.
my therapist keeps telling me my self talk is negative.
i am too hard on myself. i see that in you, but not in myself.
i don\'t shut down on you. i know i\'m just a cyber friend
but i do care. i like cyber because i have a hard time trusting.
if this friend is a true friend, then the relationship will go
through peaks and valleys. if not, then it will fizzle out.
neither is wrong. it\'s the nature of relationships.
silence. hmmmm. lets fill it with our own form of brainwashing?
Have you seen this video?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs