really day till night my days
are really a waste of life
i wake and just wait for night again
im drininking more
and i dont really care
i have so little control of life that ive given up
these truly are wasted days
i am not living at all
even at best id be chacing the impossible
so what the fuck does it matter
if i talk out how i feel
people shut down on me like im poision
so i have to lie now
..my friend has now fucked off after i bit back
and didnt let her just walk all over me
so silence is something i have a lot of now