ment on sort of a none date today
it was an afternoon out
tlaked about lots of things
then parted
she said she would have liked more to it all
even asking me later to go to her house
for something more personal ect
but i said no
said it would bring up to many issues
-
the situation is way to complex
-
it wasnt going anywhere
i think were just alone
-
so i did the right thing again and walked away
but it is upsetting because it was like a hint at being wanted
and someone saying nice things
and feeling liked as i am
--
singer had a dig at the fact i cant spell..
someone asked me to help spell a word
she jumped in dont ask him hes the worst
-but she was right i couldnt spell it
so maybe i am wrong to feel a bit up set by that
it was an afternoon out
tlaked about lots of things
then parted
she said she would have liked more to it all
even asking me later to go to her house
for something more personal ect
but i said no
said it would bring up to many issues
-
the situation is way to complex
-
it wasnt going anywhere
i think were just alone
-
so i did the right thing again and walked away
but it is upsetting because it was like a hint at being wanted
and someone saying nice things
and feeling liked as i am
--
singer had a dig at the fact i cant spell..
someone asked me to help spell a word
she jumped in dont ask him hes the worst
-but she was right i couldnt spell it
so maybe i am wrong to feel a bit up set by that
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no, not wrong. you maybe are a little
sensitive about the issue - which is so
understandable.
acceptance will get you there. who cares type of thinking.
so what if you can\'t spell type of thinking.
i would see that as a great time to say \"oh, i can\'t spell.
i\'m dyslexic.\"
that will take away any power she has.
why would it be upsetting to be wanted?
i would never say i\'m dyslexic to her
.it would be one more thing on a huge list of things wrong with me
upsetting because it wont happen
and the image of it was so close to me
being dyslexic is not wrong though.
this self-talk stuff is off. what is wrong with you? what is on this huge list?
you say it won\'t happen but it keeps happening.
you just aren\'t ready to feel it yet. You also
are too bruised and beaten to think clearly still.
you\'ve been wanted before.
otherwise you wouldn\'t know how it
feels to not be.
i dont feel ready
true
the list is 99% physical because
i live in my head all the time and people outside only
see the outside
so they are telling me my out side is all wrong