ok today
its late so key stuff
still having crazy dreams
there was a sexy girl in the dream at one point but lots of complex stuff
ened that quickly
i never dream sex stuff in dreams
.im very filtered
my mind changes the subject quikly
i would like to have sexy dreams
and the way i shut down to it i feel depressing
so something deep down shuts off
i guess its my past some how
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new girl quiet today
i can feel distance
that brings out isolation feelings again
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did a gig tonight and have one tomorrow
ive done a lot of practice on hands
my hands are really fit
its like a new world when you feel sharp
played nearly all the sets with my main leg
some stuff i cloudnt
but i didnt fall on my face as i worried about
so thats 2 nights i did ok
played better to night than in the last 2 years
hands were the best thing
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my mood is up
but feels like its floating on top of sad under
its not an island yet