today trying to do the work i have to do
my mind is going over and over stuff
i was thinking
.im to emotional
its not normal
i need to be less emotional
i need to be more
i dont really know
myself is all emotions
but part of me issnt
so if i feel something another part of me should be able to say no
stop
i told my self yes i have emotions but dont react on them
like being scared but still standing close to a cliff
but its me who is feeling the wave of axiety
i cant side step that
god its stuff like this level of confusion that
has me thinking damage your self and you may re set
what an awfull mess
my mind is going over and over stuff
i was thinking
.im to emotional
its not normal
i need to be less emotional
i need to be more
i dont really know
myself is all emotions
but part of me issnt
so if i feel something another part of me should be able to say no
stop
i told my self yes i have emotions but dont react on them
like being scared but still standing close to a cliff
but its me who is feeling the wave of axiety
i cant side step that
god its stuff like this level of confusion that
has me thinking damage your self and you may re set
what an awfull mess
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confusion. Ugh.
Despite how uncomfortable it is, I think
you are making progress.
Mixed messages cause confusion.
What if it wasn\'t your responsibility?
You say \"i\'m to emotional\"
What if you aren\'t?
What if you are just fine and grew
up in a neglectful and abusive home
and DESPITE all of that, you are still here.
You have some coping tools that are
left over and causing you some grief (like
having to figure out everything and taking
blame for everything).
are you ever scared of losing control
because of emotions?
i am scared of losing control
because of emotions
im acting outside of normal limits
and im getting noticed because of it
and isolating
and seeming odd
i dont care about pasts
or where im coming from
im here
i just need to find a better way to cope
what would happen if you allowed yourself to fall apart?
you say that alot
ive let my self fall before
its a massive mess
i can do a massive mess to easy
i need to do strong
...god i\'s all over whats going on
\"god its stuff like this level of confusion that
has me thinking damage your self and you may re set
what an awfull mess\"
I think like that sometimes. I wonder about
shock therapy. I think shock therapy is re-setting the brain.
it sounds like you want some balance?
i do and its within myself that i need it