today trying to do the work i have to do
my mind is going over and over stuff
 
i was thinking
.im to emotional
its not normal
i need to be less emotional
i need to be more
i dont really know
myself is all emotions
but part of me issnt
so if i feel something another part of me should be able to say no
stop
i told my self yes i have emotions but dont react on them
like being scared but still standing close to a cliff
but its me who is feeling the wave of axiety
i cant side step that
god its stuff like this level of confusion that
has me thinking damage your self and you may re set
what an awfull mess