deleted_user 09/02/2010
mixed messages is the key here, I think.

who is giving you mixed messages?
work? the girl who likes you? family?

alantm 09/02/2010
3 things
1 work is digging at me
itsgetting really hard and im feeling pressure to be perfect
and i cant
2 singer has smashed myself worth
3 the girl who likes me has made things complex
and 4 had someone talking about how church girl is very depressed
and 5 i have issues with how i can cope with situations in a romantic way
i just run

deleted_user 09/03/2010
church girl is not your fault. not your responsibility. please
don\'t take it on. it only harms you and helps nobody.

work. i wish you could take a break from it.

singer, you are dealing quite well with.
you are stopping her from doing that.

i think this has a lot to do with the girl who likes you.
and the fear that arises. i think that you are terrified
of the past repeating itself?

alantm 09/03/2010
church girl we did have a few good times but
i was killed by her choices and that look she used to give me
,i could never explain it but it was tragic
--
singer i am treating like flood
all i can do is put up a wall
tonight even other people saw how much i get targeted
--
other thoughts about new girl are
i cant face reacting all again
its like going to see a film to many times
or acting a roll
its like a dream that repeats
and you know its a dream and you stop
i feel like that about romance
its a fake path

deleted_user 09/04/2010
yes. so lets work on that.

the romance part.

because i am worried that you are
attracted to the type of girl who will only
cause you to feel more alone.

alantm 09/04/2010
its already over
.im going to post about it if
im not worn out