deleted_user 09/01/2010
exactly.

maybe now they will treat you better?

alantm 09/01/2010
they came back said sorry ect
now im making stuff for the enamey really
i have had other emails
over small issues
that are stupid really

i hate selling stuff
because its people
i dont do people well
and i think what the hell am i doing making myself a targget

deleted_user 09/02/2010
there are some jobs i cannot do
for the same reason.

how much do you have to deal with the people?
perhaps one day you could hire someone to talk
to people for you.

or work in a shop where someone does that.
some people are gifted at that.

i am not. sales? ugh. anytime money comes into the
discussion, i shut down.

those emails caused you a lot of anxiety, i noticed.
this is tricky. really tricky. i\'m learning how to cope
with things like this and it\'s not easy. i think it\'s all about
acceptance (at least that is what my therapist says).

so in your case, it would be about accepting
that emailing causes you great stress.
it\'s not a good form of communication for you.

so maybe avoid it? ask people to call you, instead?
or call them instead?

alantm 09/02/2010
god no
phones are even worse

i wish i could do just work and someone just say
i need 3 of this
make that
but im ment to be my own boss
i work so long on things no one else would do the things i do
contact with people is really painfull
i would shut the whole world out but i do get alone
and even then i feel far away from every one

alantm 09/02/2010
people dont understand this

deleted_user 09/03/2010
no, people don\'t understand much outside
their own experience.

people obviously want what you make.
i see this as working to your advantage.

alantm 09/03/2010
its such hard work to keep up
thats all :(