today almost screwed up to the point of getting myself killed
not good
im very worn down and im not thinking right
.im very scrambled
 
so almost had a big accident
today i got a flat tyer
so i had a electric pump
that runs off my car
i pulled it in and thought 5 mins
and i will stop it
must remember
but my mind is a mess
latyer the door bell rang
and the guy next door said do you know that pump is still runing?
i thought shit
.it was around an hour later
i thought the wheel would be huge
it looked normal i needed it to be 40 psi max
the guage said neer 110
it was so high when i released the valve
the air was milky water for a while
god it was so high
if it had blown
while there
or if i didnt have the guy call
this was a bit like the time i almost burnt the house down
when i set the kitchen on fire
its ment to be my fualt
but in ways i feel its not my fualt
because my mind is so scrambled