so what can i type today
the quiz night has me worrying about digging up the past
with the ex
is it just a chance for them to tell me about her .
.i know im not a church type
and they tend to try and help by saying god loves you
to me thats like saying the moon dragon will help you
...
thoughts are on i must get this work done
and must have time off from work
to long now working none stop
so all i can see right now is 2 days
one for work one for that quiz night
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at times i think about a bit of my life
normaly after something on tv
a romance or something where they are talking about how much they love each other ect
and i sit there thinking Yearh right as if
..im talking to myself alot
no wounder im by myself working alot
and i have no one else to say things to
some times i snap things out
times while im driving i get really agressive about
situations that have happened to me
and ill be saying f ck you
thoughts that nag
but they fade
over and out
working hard tomorrow
please get it all done
the quiz night has me worrying about digging up the past
with the ex
is it just a chance for them to tell me about her .
.i know im not a church type
and they tend to try and help by saying god loves you
to me thats like saying the moon dragon will help you
...
thoughts are on i must get this work done
and must have time off from work
to long now working none stop
so all i can see right now is 2 days
one for work one for that quiz night
---
at times i think about a bit of my life
normaly after something on tv
a romance or something where they are talking about how much they love each other ect
and i sit there thinking Yearh right as if
..im talking to myself alot
no wounder im by myself working alot
and i have no one else to say things to
some times i snap things out
times while im driving i get really agressive about
situations that have happened to me
and ill be saying f ck you
thoughts that nag
but they fade
over and out
working hard tomorrow
please get it all done
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Moon Dragon. HAHAHAHAHAAH. I spit out my coffee at that one.
Be selfish with the pub thing. Go if YOU want, only.
Try not to worry
about what is said to who.
Not your problem.
i think you need to find a place
where you can begin to socialize
and not feel so lonely.
i think i\'ve asked you this before but
have you ever thought of getting a dog?
they are amazing friends. loyal and
upbeat.
do you like dogs?
our dog died a bad death
so wont have anymore
we had a few and cats
they are all gone
i liked my fish
but dad killed that giving it chicken when he was drunk
the fish was the last link to my old life at the time
so it was very sad for me
tomorrow is still ment to be on
i feel like its walking in to a trap
What if you volunteered at a dog shelter?
Dogs connect without words. I think you need
some connections that have zero pressure
on you to conform or be someone you don\'t
want to be.
when people talk about god, i substitute love.
i think god and love are the same thing. the whole
interpretation of god is a little messed but it\'s all the same
thing. Love.
went to the quiz night
i got a few digs from them saying where have you been ect
at least no one dug up the ex thing
and she wasnt there ...
i was in a crowd
but dont think i fitted to well
im used to working
.i just felt worn out
i am worn out
a few thoughts about things but im not typing then yet
past is tuging at me here and there
i\'m impressed you went to the pub thing.
Good work!
i went out again tonight
2 of the same people not church lot
i feel like im there but not there with people
.im just there with them
...i\'s
yes i know i missed some in lines in other posts
i noticed it after
.it was bugging me less but now its bugging me more again
maybe because im feeling isolated