alowed life time
it all seems so fake and staged when you realise
.its all ending
its a decline
a fade
so anything here is so meaning less
and he truth is it really is like this
and still we suffer
what is the crule thing inside that says suffer
life has rarly come even close to the feeling of joy
i have had in the rare dream
.i still remeber waking up from feeling so happy
and loved
crashing back into this world
i cryed and hit my bed
so many times i wished i had never woken
now thoughs dreams are a far of memory
now i have a dream world built more around what i see and feel
than hopes or stupid ideas
dreams are still alive
but they live in other people
i am a sorry excuse for a person
but one day the world will correct its self for that error
and ill be gone
it all seems so fake and staged when you realise
.its all ending
its a decline
a fade
so anything here is so meaning less
and he truth is it really is like this
and still we suffer
what is the crule thing inside that says suffer
life has rarly come even close to the feeling of joy
i have had in the rare dream
.i still remeber waking up from feeling so happy
and loved
crashing back into this world
i cryed and hit my bed
so many times i wished i had never woken
now thoughs dreams are a far of memory
now i have a dream world built more around what i see and feel
than hopes or stupid ideas
dreams are still alive
but they live in other people
i am a sorry excuse for a person
but one day the world will correct its self for that error
and ill be gone
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you were no error. at least not from my perspective.
i think you were meant to create.
nobody understands how much courage it takes
to do that.
right now. you are
building strength. being stressed.
we will all be gone one day.
death is part of life.
i am stressed
.all today was like a back ground stress
tonight i feel better because he is not here
i feel SAFE !
.i had dreams the other night
my church girl ex had found someone new
and i heard her talking about him to someone
saying hes a good replacement for me and really he is more charming and funny
basicaly the dreams were about me not being as good as
the next .
because so many things have gone wrong im starting to have feelings
like i am not as good as other people
i shuere as hell get that message slammed in my face all the time
yah. those dreams always leave a little ache inside of me.
i\'ve had similar.
they are related to having your heart broken.
i think you really loved her.
that message started in childhood. it\'s like a recording
in your brain that is playing over and over.
the saddest part is that it\'s not true.
it\'s the same mechanism used in cults. Play a message over and
over until the person can\'t see outside of it. It\'s
brainwashing.
You were brainwashed into believing you
were inferior. AS a small boy! That is
what I consider child abuse. Child abuse
by the education system.
Not to mention what you had going on at home.
What if that recorded message is completely wrong????
How do we erase it?
i had the same thing today
.i see people
couples ..
or a nice girl and think i an not good enough for anyone
my church girl acted as if i were good without trying
but she left me as well
i thought how do i think that i am good
.it just feels like a lie
walking through town painted blue shouting im red