deleted_user 08/06/2010
it is awful. i hate life.

but what you describe is it.

daily grind. that is life, to me.

alantm 08/06/2010
its like its a life long thing to say
there must be more than this

deleted_user 08/07/2010
well, if you have a shit life
you always want better.

if you are in pain, you always
want it to go away.

but it only goes away for awhile
and then it comes back

i think emotions should go up and down.
because as humans, we have the capability to
feel many things.

you are in a low right now.
and from getting to know you,
i\'d say you suffer from major depression
i put a label on it because it helps connect you
to others.

depression is considered a disease.
people with diseases need support.

depression is totally misunderstood
and people are blamed for having it.
so it\'s REALLY HARD to find the support.

the only people i trust to discuss it with are
others who suffer from it.

so, you have two things going on.
you are realizing that life is a daily grind
and battling major depression.

you are one strong guy.