I worked very hard today
to hard really
i was working this hard every day a few weeks ago
makes me think
im working way to hard for a living beside others
and work stops i have no personal life
its dead
.i feel alone
and i cant mix
its like treding water till i die
.im very worried by my isolation
my emotional state
isnt normal
.im craving contact in a physical sence
im sick of being a peron of just thoughts
feel a bit shy to say my sex drive side
is going crazy right now
.im not even with someone
its like its kicking in saying what the hell are you doing alone
follow nateur or something
but im so isolated in the way i live and work
that i am scared
i fear death but only because of my wasted emotion