isolated
very isolated
dreaming a few situations that point
this out more
dreamt last night about a girl i was forced
to sit with as a kid of 7
she stayed in the shcools with me till i left at 16
i didnt like her she was ment to be a positive influence on me
she would snap at me to get on with work
like an office
but this is 7 year old kids
i dreamt i met her again but older
and she was the same awfull person
but then i saw her in bed with 3 good looking men
and i fet ugly beside them all
so if she was so wanted and i wasnt became worse
its true my thought about myself are getting worse
.i feel like no one will want me for who i am
im not good enough
and my self worth is so bad that i cant fake it
but i dont want to be alone
im like everyone i want to be cared for and loved
but i realisticaly think ill just die
after a lonley life