day again
dreamt a global disaster
where people are fighting to live
street crimes murder ect
lots of people are dead
the new way is to take things off the dead bodies
and steal cars
some how i was ok with it
it was like survival
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today lots more work
i woke late
.im fighting anxiety
its so horrabel
--
im back selling stuff
a bit
so i have to cope with people
im not going to sell much
.i want to keep a low profile while i sort out problems
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i finished work today
but did more because i have nothing else outside work
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how the hell do i balence myself
dreamt a global disaster
where people are fighting to live
street crimes murder ect
lots of people are dead
the new way is to take things off the dead bodies
and steal cars
some how i was ok with it
it was like survival
--------------
today lots more work
i woke late
.im fighting anxiety
its so horrabel
--
im back selling stuff
a bit
so i have to cope with people
im not going to sell much
.i want to keep a low profile while i sort out problems
-
i finished work today
but did more because i have nothing else outside work
--
how the hell do i balence myself
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i think that dream reflects how you feel in real life.
lots of people are dead inside. or shallow.
lots of people have no values.
what does anxiety feel like?
in me, it\'s tense muscles and
some kind of icky pain in my gut.
right now might not be the time to balance yourself.
it will just happen naturally when you are ready.
for now, you are in survival mode.
like in your dream.
oh, and it\'s weird but i noticed many people are having terrifying dreams lately.
i wonder if the moon cycle impacts our dreams?
anxiety is like hanging of the side of a building
or being crushed
or being poisiond
or feeling its your fault someone has died
my face feels like its dead and hanging of me
there is pressure in side me
my outside feels like a shell
my bodie is plastic
so many feelings
wow.
i know i\'ve said this before, but do you realize how
well you describe things?
so it\'s fear. it\'s intense fear?
when i feel intense fear, i go on \'autopilot\' and have no
memory of the situation.
who is poisoning you?
what is crushing you?
it is not your fault. not your fault.
A shell is a great way to protect yourself.
I was just looking at shells. They are amazing.
for years ive said
my hardend shell that has served me well .
i live under pressure
.i have 3 or 4 areas of problems
work is a pressure
im expecting peple to complain about things ive sold because they arnt perfect
perfection would cost a 100,000
but they are buying low cost
i do my best.
had no complaints yet
but i have high standareds
--
physical problems
i really am in trouble
and its destroying who i was or at least what i was best at
i am so destroyed from what i was
---
love has died
my view of finding
and also time to try
and self worth
----
also age and time left
veiw of life---
i suffer so much at times with my inside thoughts
that i talk out loud to myself
saying im suffering
but no one hears me say this stuff
thats even more sad
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I hear you.