bad day really
im spending a lot of time in anxiety
 
tonight i rang my ex back to see why she
called ,,hoping it was because i was missed
ive had a few days thinking that idea
and maybe a new start
but no it wasnt like that at all
it was cold and about how well she is doing
she just wanted to boast
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later read on church girls page
how she is missing me and stops her self from texting me
and worrying ect
...
all that is a mess because she is the one
who walked off from me because i dont fit her world and ideas
its all very screwed up
..work is very upsetting
also playing music is even more upsetting because i cant physicaly do it
and trying to cope with everything i do
I AM SICK OF TRYING
.IM SICK OF THIS FEELING OF SWIMMING TO A SHORE
WHEN THERE IS NO SHORE