thoughts
a big part of me has given up
i do feel hurt
but its like accepting i have lost a finger or something
its a fact
went to the river again tonight  
by the new bridge
the weather was nice
i tryed to assess
everything
i thought its like another country
new start
but it didnt work
i thought what can bring me peace
and i couldnt find it
sat by the river
the silence was huge
i cant win
.it was silent there
when im in a crowed
i hear silence
,i really cant escape
all i hear is internal
and its solitude
the outside world is just images
 
i feel alone today
while sat at the river i thought i best leave
people may think im there to jump in
also it was quite remote and i may get attacked