update
friend thinks im very negative
because of the way i think and feel ..........
 
 
i dont care
her ways of helping me just make me want to put the phone down on her or cry
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working hard
dont see a lot of possitive from it
i fear interaction from the people i sell to
also fear of
not being good enough
or failing
i just keep inventing then i dont have to deal with people
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i have no life
,i work
yes i do feel alone
i do fear death after a life of hurt