stopped working early to day 6pm
i caught up on everything
then life became awful
i have worked and worked till all i know is working
to the point i am so worn down with it all
and i got to a point that i had wondered about
what if i get a point where i have done nearlly it all
and my life comes back in to view
and to day that happend
and it was so awfull
it really was
,i as a person am so dead
life for me is a pain full
empty space
and it hurts like a vacuum tearing me
i stopped work because im so worn down
ive done 10-14 hours every day for months
something else was said to me today that really up set me but i wont go into it now
its is so wrong and so un fair
and came from my mum.
the house is tennse right now as well
i wanted to run away and stay over night in a motel
just to try and shut the world i know
out
i caught up on everything
then life became awful
i have worked and worked till all i know is working
to the point i am so worn down with it all
and i got to a point that i had wondered about
what if i get a point where i have done nearlly it all
and my life comes back in to view
and to day that happend
and it was so awfull
it really was
,i as a person am so dead
life for me is a pain full
empty space
and it hurts like a vacuum tearing me
i stopped work because im so worn down
ive done 10-14 hours every day for months
something else was said to me today that really up set me but i wont go into it now
its is so wrong and so un fair
and came from my mum.
the house is tennse right now as well
i wanted to run away and stay over night in a motel
just to try and shut the world i know
out
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my parents had me thinking i was not
capable of living on my own.
do yours do that to you?
I am here to remind you that
the discovery of your reports and the memories
are VERY painful and taxing on the mind/body.
they key RIGHT NOW is
a) patience (i\'m sure you are VERY good at that one)
and
b) being gentle with yourself.
i am glad you are journalling through this, too. that is also
an awesome coping skill.
its so hard to type anything i just dont feel i have the energy to try