work

working stupid amount of time
for nothing
even my mum is saying stop you will get ill
may as well work what else will i do with my life
the weeks has passed in one room
now its a music playing weekend
last time i was at a drum set i was finished
i cant play like i used to and i had that in my face again
now its that time of week where i have to face it again
can i do this still?
ive been selling stuff on the web again
had 2 sales in 2 days
for a while it was just one
i was then left thinking ho ho
all that work again and what if the market has changed
what if things i make dont sell anymore
it will be dead end number 2
the AV  job i had planed for a year and a lot of my money
whent no where at all
a waist of time
 
if this did id be lost
im not well enough to go full time in to music
and its so dead
it really will be a dead end in all directions