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deleted_user 05/18/2010
when I feel past talking about things, I use
what someone on here taught me -
it\'s called SO WHAT THERAPY.

You just might be right that life
is like running nowhere.

I want to know what you are doing
to practice compassion for yourself.

Writing here is a good one. Very good one.
Understanding that you are an emotional
being and that you are worthy is another one.
you are worthy. you deserve to be here just
as much as the next person.

alantm 05/18/2010
stress ..under currents are startting to get strong
un happyness is surfacing
feeling alone
feeling alone

strange situations are making it even more so
i could be with someone but cant
its life against a glass wall again

i have a clear veiw of life is short and death is real
and its all a mess
and im like a stick in a sea storm
i am totally out of contorl
.its all wavs bigger than i
thoughts of cuts flash so i dont feel alone
as if that could make me feel loved ...what a stupid i dea

i can be loved i have been loved but there is always a wall to why i cant
god its so fucking stupid
i hate all this shit
.i have my work
my work is a mask
.
this is all earlly days
i will never keep a lid on all this
something will snap

deleted_user 05/21/2010
cutting and shame go hand in hand for you.
i wish we could separate the two.
cutting is a way that relieved pain.

lets try and replace the cutting.

writing is a great way to replace it.
or what if you wrote a song about the pain?

or what if you went to the art museum?

keep writing. it\'s good stuff.

alantm 05/21/2010
i dont enyoy music any more after 2 things
1 my leg problems took away my freedom in music
2 lots of making music for the shows turned it into only work

ill add 3
3 feeling i never was good enough to be of any worth at it