again

yip a bit drunk yet again sew me
i had a very strong dream about louise the other night
its all the let downs with new love that had me thinking about old ones
the ex i miss the least is the one i spent 6 years with
that just shows how much she killed me
the turkish one i was dumpped after i was of no use to her self plans
the church girl i was dumpped though not fiting a set of pre set rules
no one mentions all this in love songs or story books
 
im living right now just for my creative work
its not easy at all but its so focused i cant see anything else
the worry is when that ends
so to something i read about familys
my up bringing and situation now is all about
making and invention and creation as a value sytem
as ive siad on here out side these things i have little value
its so odd that the people who loved me left and my sytems still stand