bad dreams last night
dreamt i was at some kind of therapy group but
i spent all of my time in a corner or hidding be hind furniture ect
rocking myself and upset
and i would not come out to join in
i felt that i was in a place that was ment to be to help me but i could not even deal with that
just now that situation remindsme of that church night where
the guy was asking for people to be heald
i knew it was all crazy but i felt
so hurt by not going forward
uin the end i did i was so driven to feel better in anyway i could
but when i got there
it was nothing
just a lot of lost words
every thing falls short of me