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dont post here much anymore
because im blank to everything
the way i act is a lot like depression but
i dont feel anything
,i have accepted that it is all out of my control
and people around me dont see the way i see things
so they cant understand my blankness
yes in moments i do get the odd suicidal thought
but thats just a shock wave from the thoughts of how
i feel this is all so much bigger than i am