things going on that are quite a big stepbut i cant talk about yet  quite a big prsonalty jumpwhether this is a side of me that has risen out of abuse i dont know if it is good .i dont know i am really in an area of i dont know but i will say its a side of sexuality that is in controlafter a life time of hidding and fear  i still think has my step in personality taken over?the protecting side      



take your time in talking about it.

i think you\'ve been doing a lot of hard work.
a lot of hard emotional work.

so change is inevitable.

what is most important is how you feel.