m t: yes its 4.30 amm t: 6 hours ago i tryed to stop workm t: but more shit happenedm t: so i worked 12pm  till 4amm t: on music for a band that has no players or workm t: for someone who has no ideam t: this one late night of stress m t: maybe be okm t: normalym t: but its followed by weeks and weeks of the same m t: .im living so poorly  that its just time till i come crashing downm t: i am driving myselfm t: emotionaly i feel nothingm t: but i am VERY defencivem t: im not typing 1000s of words anymore to fix thingsm t: im working and workingm t: and it will fix nothingm t: .i am not even aware of the outside world or life  m t: im just blinkered in workingm t: ---------------m t: im the one pushing myself over the cliffm t: from monday the pressure goes up higher m t: i dont think i will cope wellm t: .ill end up pissing people offm t: and they have no idea  why and i doubt will even care