last post for today the cut thing startted in 2002and was at its worst then so now its 2009and ive been out of that for a long long time only the odd time ive slipped  the feeling i get about it is  "This is something i can do about my feelings "  its like a baloon of pressuer or stress maybe doing somwthing crazy is taking away the focus ok thats it post over now for the war called sleap