its so hard to be of value to anyone no wounder i end up feeling worthlessits so frustrating ,i was so fucking used by my turkish girlgod shes so heartless its like this now ,if i dont get anywhere in this next yeari will quit.i will say thats enoughand i will end mylife i will not continue with all of this anymore .i dont want a life of this and even sleap is a bad time for me i dont want to go on and on any more .im sick of the lies im sick of being a reject .i cant do it anymore i would gladly get outof this rather than going on and on with the same shit
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okay, can you not end your life?
Death is one of the certainties of life. Your life will
end eventually.
try a different route to get out of it. you
are already well on your way with
the writing and with the trying to heal.
i felt rejected when i typed that
and drinking
but i felt it a lot
a lot of it is based on nexyt year
i cant keep going on as i am
part of me is saying let go
and dont care about anything just exist