its so hard to be of value to anyone  no wounder i end up feeling worthlessits so frustrating ,i was so fucking used by my turkish girlgod shes so heartless its like this now ,if i dont get anywhere in this next yeari will quit.i will say thats enoughand i will end mylife  i will not continue with all of this anymore .i dont want a life of this and even sleap is a bad time for me i dont want to go on and on any more .im sick of the lies im sick of being a reject .i cant do it anymore i would gladly get outof this rather than going on and on with the same shit