lots of work today lots of stressfull things at the end of today i talked to the girl i like i talked about how i think about the world and thoughts and emotions i think i talked so deeply about how i see the world thatits pushed her even more away .i even told her that i think more than normal people i said i have more deph than people know maybe i hoped that if she saw how i am so much more thanthe fool she sees she may respect me more   but i think i just left her on the surface while expanded everything  i truly think i wont live out this life .i have to many thoughs and to many reasons to quit