when the outside gets badyou feel the inside more  its like some kind of prison outside .its not to safe and you cant say anything  so you have to be quiet and sayings inside  ive done this before god this feels like old ground im on  no thoughts of self harm here that is totaly strange  this feels like the walls thing and chosing what to feel  this is other people problems self problems hurt a lot more this just feels unsafe  mum has shown her darker side to other people  and they cant cope i grew up knowing .i can copeit is so judgemental,i really would be someone else if i didnt grow up here  i wish i wernt here right now wish i had a friends house to go to PLEASE world give me something to help me