i dont go out .i dont try anymore things have stopped evn more than useuali have to wait till the 6th for someone i know to get out of the way till i can even make busness plans again BUT im more affected by feeling ugly ,i have no self worth some may say your ok but i really am afeccted by it now recent rejections have hurt me alot as feeling i could be loved ect  .also my life has frozen and i know time is passing and ill be dead and nothing happend but i dont know where im going to goi am lost lost  god i am so trapped