BAD BAD BAD DAY yesterdaywoke this morning and didnt want to even move that bad i went to sleap last night and didnt care if i ever woke up again sent an email the the samritans and they just replyed with have you thought of professional help pulled round today i went back to my robotic way of life and shut it out i cant nose dive agin it hurts me so much  spent most of the day telling my iner thoughts to shhhhto much thinking going on