stresses being alone and the idea i am un wanted  myself image do i look a freak  age.. im into a new age band of problems  money ..my income is poor  independence ..by removing myself from everything ..i am..but i dont have a life  fear of new work ...ive planed lots setting up a bussness...but no plan at all on how to get work self confidnce      fear that ill just keep going on in this sad way and die thinking what was it all about