this is my page so ill say what i like i am alone that is something ive had to deal with a long time i dont act like other people you will have to cope with that i have to   people who know me say im nice but they still leave me  my worst side is brought out by the abandonment and thats hartd to get overbut it can be removed if you say and show some trustand i open up into a person again  it seems im not as nice looking as people want .im just okand ok isnt worth a 2nd look all loves of my life have turned away even the ones i gave everything to   i feel my life has been very brave but no one ever saw it  i suffer alot and have very little to say this is my life  to keep going is so brave life is very very upsetting                  

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deleted_user
deleted_user

it is incredibly brave to keep going. Dr.\'s are now realizing that when a patient
comes in to say they are depressed, they usually minimize their pain. It\'s so much easier to \'end\' it.

Abandonment is a very common fear among us survivors of childhood abuse. It\'s so common and so powerful.

I\'ve been known to cut off relationships before they can flourish due to fear of abandonment. I even would expect it fully and then \'create\' that reality.

I\'d also repeatedly get involved with those who were much like the people from my childhood and my life would be so hard. I kept believing they would change or I\'d find some clue as to how to make it work.

Looks fade. It\'s part of growing old. You may start to feel invisible, too.

I think you should create some art. Some songs. You describe it all so well. That could be the purpose of this life, for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

and you already write in verses.
alantm
alantm

thanks for the reply