went to work but nosed dived in mood i was f cked really bad down so squashed  i was awfull to people .i almost had anger just before the mood crash im on the edge .i kept away from everyone  i had flash thought of cutting my wrists and i pictued  the blood running all over the small room i was in over the table topsi knew where i had a knife .i visulised the full thing but thought  it would cause so much trouble i was at work and they cant cope with soming that crazy or the place i was at  and how could i ever work again after a stunt like that but god i pictuerd it clear i wished they would take me away and make things ok .i was a real cry for help but its still in silence no one has any idea of how im feeling  when you fall people hate you for it  when you fall badly they just leave you thereand dont want to knowthen you get worse and they move away even more soon your so bad you will never get up