went to work but nosed dived in mood i was f cked really bad down so squashed i was awfull to people .i almost had anger just before the mood crash im on the edge .i kept away from everyone i had flash thought of cutting my wrists and i pictued the blood running all over the small room i was in over the table topsi knew where i had a knife .i visulised the full thing but thought it would cause so much trouble i was at work and they cant cope with soming that crazy or the place i was at and how could i ever work again after a stunt like that but god i pictuerd it clear i wished they would take me away and make things ok .i was a real cry for help but its still in silence no one has any idea of how im feeling when you fall people hate you for it when you fall badly they just leave you thereand dont want to knowthen you get worse and they move away even more soon your so bad you will never get up
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I think you just wrote a song.
This mood crash sounds almost hormonal. Like you are depressed.
Hormones are what control everything in the body. It\'s like
you get a flood of something.
Have you ever tried to get meds for depression? They can help
regulate the mood crashes. It\'s amazing how they work.
Its\' like how a diabetic has insulin rushes or crashes and needs to
regulate it.
i don\'t think people hate you for it. they fear it. they are
terrified of it. you are in need and they don\'t know
how to help. or they are scared of losing someone they
care about. or sometimes they just cannot relate. they\'ve
never felt such deep emotional pain and wanted to cut. so
it\'s out of ignorance, not hate. true hatred is rare.
i think this would be a great song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYIxXF9qdpE
Have you heard that song? The lyrics remind me of how you write.
god i read that and it sounds so sever
crazy even
but its an assesment of the feelings i have a the time
i know what you meen about hormones
.ive thought that myself
even docs thought some out side thing
ive always been very up and down
.sorry it all sounds so bad
yes that song is a lot like me