therapy counciling what ever they classed it as i have this memory of it and its this guy laughing a light hearted reactionto me being there  to me it wasnt i was walking in traffic a bad frear of deathand people thinking i was agrophobici was a wreck on pills that were  making my life like a walking deadhow fucking funny is that i left there and next became a cutterlaugh at that  i really hate docs they just cant feel they have no ideaeven now i have pains that no one knows  and cant even see if i said i had cut myselfthey would say its all not even realso fuck them EVERYONE IS OUTSIDE !!! im inside    i wish i was loved or for now held