god the SI group is so fucked up cant go there im in no groups arpt from dislexia thats just to expail my spelling no one ever replys there its words ive fucking sunk here and it went un noticed its not peoples fault im just a fuck up in a small world and thats it trying not to feel anger trying not to self halm to hit the rest button need to shock myself back
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be patient.
you are on the road to recovery. it\'s a looooooooong road.
i used to want shock treatment. the thought of shocking
my brain back to some feeling of normality seemed
so appropriate.
reset button. exactly.
i really fell this time
so unreall how i fell
thats why i have so much text
before this
the reset really took a long time this time
it was like drowning and not coming up !
and everyone here was away
i have a lot of emails from the help line
they wanted me to call them up
thats a first