THE turkish EX said she was coming to see me saying she still cares for me  i got her to say the truthshe does not love me  she rang and said im not coming because of ......just make up a stupid reason ,im being looked at as an idiot for giving that person hope but it was dead before that call i told her its not good enoughand i was now just a friend to hera friend she never sees or calls  it did upset me some and i do feel at a loss to where i turn now but i was used  the house is quiet with out the nut case walking aroundi dont lock my door now ,its hard to relax stillthat will take a long time  social sites like face bookare telling i have listed all the people .i knowand none of them bother with mesame on the old live journal page i had same on the date pages i had  i only talk to one person alot and that is a complex thing she mainly talks about other people in her life  so what the f ck i mean to anyone i dont know