things got to much today had a small breake down at a friends house   i was tlaking about things for 9 hours and still felt i had said nothing  the idiot in the house got what is called sectiond  he was in a hospital ward but they let him outside to smoke ??????????????????????and he ran offnow the poilce are after himto drag him back under the mental health acthe came back here now has his car againthey cant find himfor a while i could relax but now its bad again i told someone today about my thoughts of killing myself maybe i should have not done that