having social problems had a few performing jobs at partysand clubs im feeling very very out of place .i feel im not part of scocity i cant cope with things like they all do .i just feel worse and more in a jar im having work issues not dealing well with people im pushing them away,i have suprising amounts of resentment and even anger at reltionshipsor the way i see and have HAD to deal with i feel im sick of trying to prove i am worth to be loved and when i stop no one does love mei feel unloved sick of tryingfor everyone when no one cares anyway the whole thing is very upsetting i feel rejected and still feel like a small child that knows no one likes but for the only reason ,that i am me im just not a person that is wanted
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Oh my.
This is tough. I can relate.
I withdrew from society for over a year. I hated everyone. EVERYONE.
All I could see was abuse and mean people and stupidity.
It will pass. Be gentle with yourself, k?
Oh, and I don\'t think anybody knows you.
I don\'t think you\'ve been able to get to know yourself.
I think that you are surrounded by insensitivity these days.
So take it one small step at a time.
When I feel depressed, I try and focus on a really small thing.
Like making my bed everyday. Small, small. Focus on taking a vitamin or do something to take care of YOU.
Okay? Let me know what that is.