the point that has brought me back here is this  i was told that i will have to go and work in germany but now im told finaly where it is  ive been very ill in the past with a death fear .it set me off in some very odd ways i became ill ,ive never been to a funeral ,i avoid them all tonight ive found out i am working at its Belsonthe concentration camp town ill be right on top of that camp its a very small place ,its an army base. 50,000 died there,its where ann frank ended up i go next month ,its like being scared of spiders and thrown in 1000s of themi cant talk to anyone about it so ill just have to cope by myself