Last night i dreamt i met louise i saw a girl on the erou vision song contest that reminded me of her so i dreamt her i had thought about her a few days agothe thought was if i met her to say i never have really forgotten her so i dreamt i met her again we were together better than ever then a few crazy things happend in the dream as always and it all came undone but i felt so happy in that dream that is the problem i always felt a deep warmness thinking of herthat feeling even hung on after waking that idea of her is 10 years out of date in the same dream i dreamt about my other girlfirends my turkish girl in the dream only talked about herself its a sad reflection of how things are .im going back to the hospital tomorrow i dont know what will happen this time
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Okay, I haven\'t heard you say
you felt happy ever.
What a lovely dream.
I think you are afraid of things going good. That\'s why it all came undone.
I am trying to tell myself that things pass. Even when things are going good,
I tell myself that it will pass.
Then I know to enjoy it fully. Then I\'m not so afraid of it ending.
Great dream. Huge progress.
I see dreams that don\'t go sour in the future.
i remember a dream long ago
where i was so in love
runing though fields of corn and all the
silly stuff you see in films
my heart was truly flying
and i woke
and that upset me so much
i cryed so much
part of my self had let me open up so much
i felt like some one had died
things do pass
and as you get older you know this
so when things are happening
you feel like you are almost
tring to film it in your mind
like a photograph
trying to document the event
and you feel by knowing it will end
you are ruining it
its true i dont say happy
and the same with love
the L word
its all quite rare for me
.i still feel life is in a very
very dead section for me
things never go good in my dreams
you are right
something panics
and changes
its the same with physical dreams
there is a point were i distract
myself wont let
even asleap
now that is in deep and not by choice
No, it\'s not choice.
None of this is choice.
I think you are afraid of happy. I sure was/am.
By knowing it will end you don\'t ruin it - you enjoy it while it lasts.
It removes the power that feeling good gives you and
allows you to stay in the moment.